Dear Younger Me,
As much as you want life to be fair, being the “Fair” Queen isn’t fulfilling. Growing up, you always wanted things to be equal among you and your sisters, but that wasn’t always the case, instigating your jealousy and Mom’s common quote, “Well, life isn’t fair.”
Now that you’re older, you still feel those feelings, less so about the silly things of your childhood, but instead seeing everything around you that you don’t have yourself. You see friends in different life stages and want what they have, and you want to ask God if He’s holding you back, like a child repeating the same grade. It’s easy to think it’s not fair.
But even if you had all the things you want, I think you know deep down that you still wouldn’t be fulfilled. Happiness doesn’t come from life being fair. Happiness doesn’t come from having everything you want. No matter what you experience, your soul is going to long for what can’t be found in this world. Your soul is longing for the ultimate love and satisfaction that is met in Jesus. On this side of eternity, your heart is still human, and you struggle to fully grasp it, but knowing this, I hope you’ll have a better understanding of your feelings.
So in the wishing and longing for what others have, keep bringing your heart to Jesus. He knows how to take care of your heart and knows exactly what you need and when.
Love,
Megan
