Inadequate: insufficient or coming up short. The way that I have felt in my walk with Christ lately, and I am sure I’m not the only one. Many times, we lose sight of Jesus, just like Peter when he was walking on the water.
Matthew 14:22-33 is the story of Jesus walking on water, a testament to Jesus’ power and the strength we receive when we trust in Him. But what if this story wasn’t just an example of how to put our trust in Jesus, but also an illustration of how our lives with Christ will look? Just like Peter, we can walk on the raging sea when we keep our sights on the One who created the sea. We are called daily to walk on the water in the middle of the storm, not just a calm sea but raging waters, with our eyes locked on Jesus. The truth, however, is we are human, we will lose sight of Jesus. Even when we feel the waves and storm engulfing us, Jesus never leaves. He continues to stand firm in the middle of the raging sea waiting for us to call out to Him. When we cry "Lord, save me!" (Matt. 14:30) as Peter did, Jesus immediately extends His hand helping us out of the raging sea and reminding us who is truly in control.
Lately, this feeling of inadequacy that has consumed me has felt like those waves surrounding Peter when he fell walking on the water. I have felt like I have been drowning with Jesus standing right there waiting for me to call out to Him, but I haven’t. Those waves of inadequacy have made me embarrassed to sit in the presence of the Father. So instead of crying out, I have found myself running in the opposite direction. Searching for something else to save me from drowning- anything but the hand of Jesus. After a few days of running, I stood in worship with my peers and conceded to the fact that it was time for me to surrender. Today I am saying "Lord, save me!", taking the hand that He has extended to me. This surrender allows Him to come in and take my brokenness and inadequacy and transform it into strength. As alone as I have felt this past week, Jesus was there every step of the way waiting for me to say "Lord, save me". Ready to pull me out of the raging sea. Now, by crying out to Jesus I didn’t receive immediate restoration without any work. Jesus ignited the restoration process, a process now that I get to spend with Him in prayer and His word as He begins to transform me into someone that He will use to continue walking on the water and endure the raging sea.
So, here’s my question, is it time for you to join me in crying out "Lord, save me!"?
Lucille “Lucy” LaMar is a girl seeking after Jesus despite all her failures. Lucille is currently a sophomore at Olivet Nazarene University studying accounting, intercultural studies, and Spanish. A lover of people, stories, and community, you can find this bundle of energy spieling to anyone and everyone about anything and everything. As you read this blog, Lucille prays that the Lord will use these words to speak to you.
